Unsent Letter

I started writing a letter about a week ago, but I just couldnt bring myself to send it. There's no point anymore and nothing I say will bring those feelings I use to feel back. I think i've reached a point of acceptance. Like I don't like how things are but im tired of fighting and ive given up. I've let myself become almost numb to the situation. I have no expectations that it will get better and therefore I can't be hurt anymore and I refuse to give myself any type of false hope. Things arent and will never be the same anymore. I don't even dwell on memories anymore because its like looking through the front window of a store but knowing you will never be able to afford that item. I think reality just sunk in. Its awkward now and will probably always be awkward. Thats life.

Have you ever tried sleeping with a broken heart?

"But it's time to face the truth...I will never be with you..."

Letting go of the person you love is so hard. It's like ripping your own heart out of chest and dying slowly. I don't believe in fairy tales anymore...I don't believe love conquers all. I feel pretty empty.. like a part of me is missing. But I have to get over this. Sadly, my heart is on lock now, and I have a thick wall up. I dont want anyone to get to it...I don't want to give anyone my heart anymore for fear they will make more cracks in it.