I need a change. Maybe not clothes but I need a new look. A new start. I need something to just renew my mindset. I think I need to take a few days to myself to do some soul searching. I think I'm going to take the next few days to just basically focus on school and pray for direction and wisdom. Also for my heart ache. I had a very interesting conversation with a very good friend of mine this morning and she told me you cant control how you feel no matter how hard you try. Maybe this is why it hurts so much because I've been trying to control these feelings for him..its like denying apart of myself. Anyways, I kind of just want to distance myself emotionally. I'm at the point where maybe I want to have a wall up with him. I'm afraid to let him in anymore than he already is. I think that I really just need to concentrate on Me right now and strengthening my spirituality.
Wednesday, March 30, 2011
Confession # 2
I need a change. Maybe not clothes but I need a new look. A new start. I need something to just renew my mindset. I think I need to take a few days to myself to do some soul searching. I think I'm going to take the next few days to just basically focus on school and pray for direction and wisdom. Also for my heart ache. I had a very interesting conversation with a very good friend of mine this morning and she told me you cant control how you feel no matter how hard you try. Maybe this is why it hurts so much because I've been trying to control these feelings for him..its like denying apart of myself. Anyways, I kind of just want to distance myself emotionally. I'm at the point where maybe I want to have a wall up with him. I'm afraid to let him in anymore than he already is. I think that I really just need to concentrate on Me right now and strengthening my spirituality.
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