Unthinkable

"I was wondering maybe could I make you my baby, if we do the
unthinkable would it make us seem crazy, or would it be so beautiful, either
way im sayin if you ask me im ready."

I decided to just come partially come clean on my feelings. I really put myself out there. It's just that I care about this person so much and I understand where he's coming from and I think thats what kills me the most is how it could be but it just can't right now. It's so fustrating. Moving on? Hm..I tried. You never fully move on from someone you truly care about. The crazy part of this is, I never expected to feel this way, didnt ask for this, wasnt crushing, but here I'am..guess you really can't help who you fall for. I fought this hard and I still am. I'm trying so hard to choke back these feelings because im afraid. I really want to give this a chance again. need to get my head together. So much love to offer...if only it was accepted...sigh...that's life for you. I want him to be happy..as crazy as it sounds..even if it means breaking my own heart and letting him be happy with someone else...i would do it. That's real love right there. For now, I think i'll keep these feelings to myself. I'm not fully ready to love. I'm scared.